The challenge is PRESENCE, plain and simple. Our traditional coping mechanisms DETACH us emotionally, rendering our ability to be present impossible. Ain’t happening. Add some chemicals, tell Yourself that increases Your ability to maintain presence. There’s a whole world of programs involving steps out there to help You with that, if You’re truly committed to believing Yourself. Meanwhile, You’ll tire more quickly and fizzle faster, then that bad mood will hit You like a ton of bricks… “so I’ve heard.”
Save the wine for the true end of the day. It may take numerous attempts to acknowledge and appreciate the difference in every aspect of Your experience of presence, but I promise You, if You let Yourself feel true presence, and the feeling of love that surrounds You when You’re truly present, You’ll love it and everything about Yourself and Your doings so much more than I can express for You.